Happy Holidays

The holidays are here which means LOTS of food. It is an easy time to let workouts slide and justify mass calorie consumption because it is "Christmas". My goal this week is to do my  best. That is fair right? I know myself and I am going to eat a bunch so it is time to up my workouts when I can this weekend. I will ignore the fact that I am still sore from a class I took MONDAY!!! AND... its time to keep chugging. I know I can't get to the gym tomorrow or Sunday due to holiday commitments so I will make sure I go tonight and Saturday. Easy right? Nothing else going on. HA! Tonight and Saturday its an "all out" kind of workout. Tonight is Zumba and some weight training. I have been in my PJs all day on the floor with the kids and the only thing getting me dressed and out in this chilly weather is the desire to have that awesome feeling you have after a great workout. My goal is to be at Sunday night and not feel once ounce of guilt for all the great foods ahead....

Shine my inner Latina!

Tonight you would never know I spent my high school years doing kick drills and poms routines, because I had NO RHYTHM at my first Zumba class. Initially, I felt like everyone MUST be looking at me but then realized they were all looking at the straight fool in the front and I quickly got over feeling goofy and just had fun! It was JUST the workout I needed today. I have a feeling my muscles are going to be severely ticked off at me tomorrow....

Getting in the zone tonight....because I can't workout the next 2 days due to back to back to back to back commitments and fun stuff going on!

Nos vemos Domingo Zumba. Hasta entonces, mantener mi atención!

Be ok with it.

My friend told me the other day....make a decision and be ok with it. This is totally true! I got here because I have had an insane 4 years...a pregnancy, grad school, a pregnancy. There was very little time in there for me. I am totally ok with being where I am today and having my kids and my masters. I would not change my decisions for anything in the world. I am ok with it. 

This goes for other things to....make a decision to go workout or not, eat a cupcake or not...and be ok with it. Don't beat yourself up all day after your decision. Its not productive. 

Today.... I did an hour and 15min at the gym. I missed the class I wanted to take because I looked at the time wrong. I am ok with it. I am going to have my Diet Coke at some point today and some shape or form of chocolate, because I can't give that up. I had a healthy breakfast of eggs, ham and green peppers, and plan to have a huge salad at lunch. I have chicken with black beans and salsa going in the slow cooker for dinner. Today is going to be a good day and I am ok with it.

And here we are....

So here I am. 3 babies later, and I am possibly in the worst shape of my life. Yes, you heard me....I am a HOT MESS.  And I am ready to do something about it. I plan to blog as much as possible throughout my lifestyle change in case anyone wants to read about my journey and as a way to document it for myself because this is going to be fun. :)

My main reason for not being at the gym on a treadmill is GUILT. Yes, you heard me. It is not due to lack of desire to get back in my size 8 jeans, or the rush I feel and miss so much after a good workout, or just pure laziness...its guilt. How can I, a full time working mom, possibly take one hour out of our night to go to the gym? I would feel SO bad leaving the kids to go do something for me.... Is it really necessary to go TONIGHT when I should be playing legos with Noah? Bathing Lincoln? Watching youtube with Brandon? How can I go to the gym for an hour when I feel bad just running to Jewel for lunch meat alone? Anyone relate?

Today I met with a trainer at XSport and talked to her about this a little. I was just cleared (for the 3rd time since having Lincoln-keep being told I cant work out then can, cant then can) to workout again. I discussed how there was somewhat of relief after my Doc would say.....ummmm lets hold off again for awhile. Why? well, because THEN I wouldn't have to do what I felt was picking between myself and the kids. She said something that really made sense: The best thing you can do for your family is get healthy. If you are not healthy, who is going to be there for them when you are too sick to, and who is going to show them what healthy means? It made PERFECT sense.

So here we are.  I am ready for more energy and to just feel strong again. I feel really "outta whack" and I am sick of it. The most important thing I want to share is that I see far too many women base goals on the achievements of others. Who the hell cares if Suzy Sunshine just got a personal best on her marathon.... yay for her for doing an amazing job but should THAT be what drives women to do better for themselves?  Your goals and motivation need to come from you and what you want to do. It is not about "one upping" Suzy...ONE UP YOURSELF FOR CRYING OUT LOUD!!!